Why is it so hard to be grateful for what we have already? I asked myself that today as I was moping about, I just received really good news this week about getting the job I always wanted… Instead of celebrating, I was laying in bed feeling down asking myself ‘what’s next?’. As all the negativity started to fill my head I started focusing on what I don’t have, telling myself like ‘yea you’re so accomplished, yet your still suffering with acne, single, and broke.’ It got so bad I started crying, and that didn’t help anything it just intensified my self loathing. I had to seriously take a moment to myself and ask why? Why does good news make me think badly of myself and what I’m lacking.
And I realized I’m human, most of us are conditioned to never being fully satisfied no matter how much or what we accomplish. ( I envy those who are completely content). We always want more, as for me I know I feel as if I have so much more to do before I can consider myself an acclaimed individual. Once I reach something I want, I check that off the list and start to stress about all the other things I need/want to experience. It’s not hard to point the finger at society and the media for making the majority of us feel as if we need more to be accepted.
Of course it’s beautiful to want more and to work hard.But at what moment do we find our true peace?
Our wants are a selfish part of our mind, they never let us fully enjoy the goals that are already obtained, instead they are focused on doing the next thing bigger and better.
It feels so ugly but is that what makes humanity great? Is that what makes me continue to try to get rid of my acne, find love, and be successful? Is that why people compete, and try new things? Think about why we put ourselves out in the open, vulnerable to the world. We need to be satisfied We’re never content, that’s why we keep going.
So is being ungrateful positive or negative ?
Can we say it possesses both sides of the spectrum?
Who knows how it works…However, I do believe if you can’t always be grateful at least be thankful for what you have. ❤️